I have been thinking about this for months now, starting a blog. I've even sat down to do it a few times. But then I start thinking that I'm not a writer, and truthfully it's not as though my life is exciting enough to blog about. I mean, I think my life is exciting and beautiful and wonderful, but would anyone else?
But then, I don't really need to do this for anyone else, it's for me. A place that I can vent and put into writing what I'm feeling and thinking. And I've always enjoyed it, I have been a journal/diary keeper on and off my entire life. I have books upon books stacked in my closet in my childhood home (I suppose it's actually the guest room closet now!) ranging from diaries I kept in third grade and talked about who played with who at recess and which boy I liked, to ones riddled with middle school agnst (usually involving whatever boy I liked), and late high school and early college ones that were more mature and contemplative, although still had a strong focus on which boys I liked. (are you sensing a theme from my adolescence?)
But blogging is slightly more indimidating then journaling, for starters other people can read it! And while I consider myself pretty computor savey, I'm not sure how to make my blog pretty and this distresses me. I'm also worried I might have too high of expectation of blogging. For some reason the image that comes to my head when I think about it is me balancing a laptop on my lap with a cup of tea in one hand while sitting in front of a roaring fire with some soft music playing in the background. I picture the words flowing with ease from my mind to the screen as I write profound and indepth musing of life and love, stuff that people will clamour to read. The truth of the matter, however, is that I don't own a laptop, I'm not much of a tea drinker (a glass of red wine, perhaps), I live in Phoenix and we don't even have a fireplace, and I'm fairly positive I don't have any indepth musing on life or love!
But now I have taken the first step, I have written my FIRST BLOG EVER! Even if I don't do anything else past this, at least I attempted instead of laying in bed at night thinking about trying it. And maybe I will call some of my blogging friends and get advice on how to make it pretty.... because that is for some reason very important to me. And maybe soon I will call myself a blogger.